over and done with

there is always some place / songs / movie or something that will bring memories of that person to you.

For me, its "Way Back Into Love" - this song was our song. so much so that we wanted it as our wedding march in song... thats how much this song meant to the both of us.

Just a couple of weeks ago when I chatted with a friend about what I've gone through. I was asked how old was he...

a good 5mins, I was in slience. I couldn't remember was it 3 years or 2 years.
and then I thought to myself, when was his birthday, I couldn't recall which date was it.

was it work that kept me busy all these while that I didn't have time to think about it? Or was I too pissed to even spend the effort getting angry over it? I don't know. Its been to a stage where whenever I relate what happended to friends, its like another episode of Taiwan 800episode soap drama - loosely translated as "if you miss an episode, you didn't missed much.

Its been almost a year, and I can say that he is totally out of my system. Today when I accidentally played it on my iPod, it doesn't hurt anymore.

For now, finding a man whom I love and getting married is less of a priority to me. Don't get me wrong, I still believe in forever, but its companionship and happiness type of forever.

I guess that's why I'm very comfortable with current state. Status is not an issue to me. It matters to me that whenever I'm down, K is there to be my listening ear. He is anxious about my safety, and it worries him if he had not heard from me for days. And if I travel alone, he is looking out for my email or msn, to know that I'm safe. It is just this strong feeling that I can't describe. The things that he have done warms my heart, or sometimes make me miss a heart beat.

Looks like I'm off to another chapter.

launch

5mins to the official launch!
all the months of hard work and efforts....tadah!!!!

I've been asking myself.... what do I want to achieve...
hmmmmm..... I'm still thinking

cheap thrill

never under estimate the power of cheap thrill! Lately I've been on a route of cheap thrill...

buying a pair of heels (erm, well the 3rd pair this month), having a glass of ice cold coke, pizza and hoegaarden combi on a sat night, ice cream and chips, painting my nails, aloe face mask, having Sunday breakfast with friend, exchanging emails, coin dozer, taking public bus/train, shopping, people gazing, and many many more...

each and every never fail to make me happy and smile :) its like aphrodisiac, keeps me high and love...

so yeah, I love cheap thrill!

what's next?

a mth back from my trip from down under...had an amazing time with friends...

an unexpected surprise, swept my feet away to 3127miles.

recharged and getting ready for festive rush, so excited coz this yr will be another amzing year for us. If everything goes as plan, we will be making statement in the market again. *cross fingers* have faith!

Its National Day today, Happy 45 years of Independence, Singapore!
I was born in the era of developing Singapore to developed Singapore, as follows...

MRT, the change of non air con SBS bus to double decked bus, 20cent to $1.00 of shutter service, ERP, pple using MRT as another avenue of committing sucide Esplanade,

how HDB flat used to be piling, now its lego brick building, more pigeon holes...more of us paying ridiculous amt for that tiny pigeon holes

the IT boom, the burst of the IT bubble, the recession, unfortunately I graduate in the year of recession

how Singaporean help to boost the our friendly neighbour retail industry, pump petrol, stock up grocery

our 1st elected President, the death of our presidents, our nation heroies, my 1st voting experience

the change of a post office to Fullerton Hotel, Ngee Ann City, facelift of Far East Plaza, the most expensive maid hangout to ION Orchard, revamped on Mt Faber, VIvoCity, Integrated Resorts, Universal Studio, Spore Flyer, Temasek Poly new campus, Stephanie Sun, Zouk > Venom > Dbl O > Bar None > MOS > St James Power Station, tea dance, bengs and lians,

me from a grease monkey to a marketer, how I struggle during juggling part time studies & work, no I didn't ace my grades...I stuggle to stay awake during class, the amazing amt of alcohol I intoxicated during my party days, travelling alone, single, first kiss, break up, attached again, break up again, attached again, and break up again, mmm I think I lost counts... had amzing friends,

Parent 25th wedding anniversary, Daddy finally retire, Kor got married, the addition of 3 new members to my family (the youngest is screaming now)

so what's next? I will survive....

i need a break...

keeping my finger crossed that the trip happens....
a short break before the mad festive rush begins would be great!
and of coz to escape the heat here. weather is so crazy.

I can so imagine sitting by roadside, with a nice cup of earl grey and a book :)

爱情=游戏???

我不懂为什么真心换来的是谎言
付出换来的却是伤害
所以我不再相信爱情
我也害怕付出我自己的感情
我也不相信世界上会有什么所谓的珍爱
甚至爱情小说里的一生一世的相恋
只是出现在小说里的情节吧
爱情只是一个短暂的游戏吧....

爱

....只是一种短暂的依靠
无论付出多深
换来的只是伤害
只要自己觉得快乐,就够了
不管两个人多么相爱
最后还是会分离

my soul

'If I can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray my own soul"

谎话

男人和女人说慌的不同是什么?
男人说慌是让自己好过点
女人说慌是因为不忍心伤害对方,
才说出背对良心的话

勇气

勇气不是天生, 是一点一滴累积. 承认自己懦弱, 逃避现实, 是累积勇气的第一步吗? 表面看似勇敢, 面对挑战如鱼得水, 但其实内心却是懦弱者.

我不是那么坚强!!! 我也需要拥抱!!!

在某个时候, 我们都以为我们是坚强, 是洒脱, 可是当实事摆在眼前时, 大家不得不承认, 我们都输给了现实