Weekends of the past few months were plain boozing away. Recently, it've been to a stage where without booze I feell the emptiness within me. Its like something is missing and I juz didn't felt right. Counting my fingers away.... it seems like almost every Friday, I'll be at different place dinking with different group of pple... Am I leading that dream singlehood that I craved for when I was with Bengz, or am I finding some ways to numb myself? I really dunno...
It hit me hard and got me thinking when the recent bills came and all the transaction were from the drinking session. I bought myself nothing... not even a piece of clothing, a bag, an accessories, NOTHING!
Although I consider myself who can hold my own liquor... (the last time I was dead drunk was during my 17th bday) recalling back those silly things I've done when I'm out "partying" really puzzled me. Some of which I didn't even remembered, or I shocked the hell outta everyone with my behaviour and actions...
So am I or am I not????
1 comment:
I think you are looking for that purpose in life or simply you are lost like everyone who had grad with a useless piece of paper. After studying so hard for it to discover that it doesn't actually help you to reach the goals of life.
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